I'm Mad, Me
Crazy Love
Through The Darkness

I'm Mad, Me

I’m mad, me
completely barking
lost the plot
got no marbles left in my head
(though I’ve plenty of coloured balls)

I’m the scourge of society
a waste of precious space
the underbelly
a statistic
a fear
seen only in headlines
and community groups

I’m the girl you spoke to down the pub last night
the one you bought a drink
played some pool
had a laugh with

I sat with you on the bus
listened to you talk about your day
even spoke a bit myself

Remember last week?
you met me out shopping

I served you your food

I’m mad, me
And you?
If you believe that I’m an object of ridicule?
It’s obvious, my friend
You’re a fool

Rachel Studley © 2003

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Crazy Love - 12 Bar Blues

A song by John Exell

I’m psychotic for you baby,
I can’t get you out of my mind.
I’m erotic for you baby,
I can’t get you out of my mind.
I’m a psychotic erotic,
Please don’t waste my time.

I’m two minds about you baby,
You really split me apart.
I’m two minds about you baby,
You really split me apart.
I’m schizophrenic for you baby,
Please don’t break my heart.

I’ve got delusions of grandeur baby,
I want you for my Queen.
I’ve got delusions of grandeur baby,
I’m Napoleon, you’re my Josephine.
I’m Napoleon for you baby,
Why do you treat me so mean.

I’m obsessed with you baby,
I think about you day and night.
I’m obsessed with you baby,
I think about you day and night.
I think about you all the time,
Man, you’re right out of sight.

I’m manic about you baby,
You really make me high.
I’m manic about you baby.
You really make me high.
You make me feel bi-polar,
Now I just want to die.

I’ll spend my DLA on you baby,
My Incapacity Benefit too.
I’ll spend my DLA on you baby,
My Incapacity Benefit too.
I’ll spend it all on you baby,
If you’ll only love me like I love you.

You’re my valium baby,
I’d like to swallow you down.
You’re my prozac baby,
You’re my night on the town.
But I’d even take largactal,
If you’d just let me follow you down.

You’re my valium baby,
I’d like to swallow you whole,
You’re my prozac baby,
I’d like to swallow you whole,
I’m a pill-head for you baby,
I love you body and soul.

I’m crazy about you baby,
I’m crazy for your love,
I’m crazy about you baby,
I’m crazy for your love,
No-one knows how I feel about you baby,
Except for the Lord above.

Your voice is in my head,
It speaks to me all day long.
Your voice is in my head,
It speaks to me all day long.
It says you’re crazy about me baby,
That you will love me all night long

But when I see you baby,
You don’t seem to care.
But when I see you baby,
You don’t seem to care.
You look right through me,
As if I wasn’t there.

I preferred the voices,
That’s why they locked me away.
I preferred the voices,
That’s why they locked me away.
That reality was sweeter,
It had better things to say.

I waited in the ward,
Waited for you to come.
I waited in the ward,
Waited for you to come.
But you never showed up,
Boy, was I struck dumb.

I begged for E.C.T. baby,
I begged for diazepan,
I begged for E.C.T. baby,
I begged for diazepan,
They made me forget about you baby,
Now I’m happy again.

I was crazy about you baby,
I was crazy for your love.
I was crazy about you baby,
Crazy for your love,
No-one knew how I felt about you,
Except for the Lord above

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Through The Darkness

I lived in darkness
Withdrawn from modern life
My mind was full of negativity
And my mood was depressed
I can relate to the melancholic poets
And the gothic literature of Edgar Allan Poe
These lost souls are misunderstood
This is not a quest for evil
But a search for positive energy
I will come out of this stronger
Wiser and more sympathetic
I felt so restrained by modernity
By the pressure to conform and look good
I took a razor and cut through the superficial layer
To get in touch with my soul
I had to risk losing my life
To realise how precious it is
Now I am fully restored
A cloak of darkness surrounds me
I see the world in crystal clear vision
Droplets of blood fall from my eyes
A memory of the sadness I endured
A bright new spirit guides me
But the darkness will always be there
To remind me how bright these days are

Nigel Corbett
Gothic Poetry http://website.lineone.net/~demonrobber/