A Fragile Life
Monster
Sort It Out

A Fragile Life

My life is like a fragile egg
I'm waiting for it to drop and break
To break is to die
To die is to have peace
Only then will my troubles be over
An eternity of peace
That I can look forward to
It's like a present to me
Another layer of wrapping goes free
I don’t know how many more layers there may be
My life means nothing to me
To end it is all I ever think
My family, cats and my friends are the only thing
Stopping my egg from falling over the edge you see
And giving me my tranquil peace away from society
From all the pain I hide inside of me
I wish my egg had never came to be
No longer can I leave my egg on the edge of sanity
I can travel down the canyons pretty views then maybe
To roll forward is what I must do
Only then will my message get through
That message would have to be
I tried telling you all I was living in misery

Robert, 2004

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Monster

A trust that was broke
A lie that was spoke
You had my life in you hand
Saving me from the devil
But I couldn’t see your horns sticking out
So now I can’t sleep
And I wait till the day I will weep
A new responsibility given
A new action I have to fear
Why didn’t I save you?
Why didn’t you get yourself some help?
I had to find your secret
Your hushed friend
that kills you
That rips all of us apart
That cuts my heart
And tears the skin
Four months you hid
From who you are
From the monster chasing you
And finally pulled you in
It’s not that easy
Not that easy to say it’s done
To say you won’t
Because you said that last time
And it didn’t work
So why is now different
I am just not that strong
To let this be this
And tell you that I hate you
And what you did will never leave my mind
And now every time you go out
The question stays in my mind
Will the monster get you again
You brought me pain
You stole my joy
You are still to blind to see him coming
He is after you
And I can’t save you this time
I gave It all I got
And I got nothing left to give
I can’t be strong any longer
Can’t fight the pain you sent
For the bottle may have taken your pain away
But it won't take the daughter that wants you to stay.

Abby Miller

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Sort It Out

There are voices there in my head
Sometimes they say good, sometimes they say bad
I try to reminisce on the good times I’ve had
But most of the time it ends up going back to the bad.

I’ve tried to kill myself more than once
But now I realise there is more to life than this
So now when I sit and reminisce
I find there are good things and good things to come.

Thank you to radio 1 for fortunately putting that programme on
I was thinking of ending it all there and then
but if it wasn’t for me pressing the wrong button
on my stereo remote I wouldn’t have listened to those radio 1 folk
I would have ended it that night,
I thought jump in front of a truck I might.
But I heard one woman say that there is always light
at the end of the tunnel, at the end of every tunnel

so now I choose to sort out my problems try to get back on track with life
I know there will be some ups and some downs
but now I’m going to try and not to frown
when life’s problems get me down
I’m going to sort it out
Yes, Sort it out

An hour on the phone I spent
at 2am this morning talking to my mom
sorting out what I can do
“take things one step at a time” she said
and ignore those voices in your head.
“I love you and I’m always thinking of you”
and I thought I love you too.
So when you think I’m going to end it today STOP
and think because there is another way
there are people who can help, sort you out
and maybe one day I can guarantee you will look back and say
Did I really want to end my life that way?

Shaq