My So Called Life

Where to begin .....

Well I have a condition called asperger syndrome, so that does not help with trying to be so called normal in this messed up world! I struggle just trying to cope, I should stop getting so paranoid, and getting this dreadful thoughts into my head. I’m scarred of being alone, and sometimes I just want to escape into a black hole.

I feel so scared, I used to live with a girl, we used to be friends until she used me and lashed out all the time and made my life hell. No one listened again I felt so helpless. I wished someone could speak to me, just be a friend. Simple things like having a tea and chatting on the sofa would bring so much sunshine. I found it hard to understand me sometimes I just want to top myself, who would notice, is there any point of me being here ... I just wish friends

Sam