touched up

he touched me as i felt
he should not have
done
as i had never been
touched
before
alas i could not tell
i did not even know
exactly
how far it was
permissible for a
boy to go
it wasn't full rape
and he was
only my own age
after all
just some poxy lad
from school

he got away with it
i should have told
at aged fifteen i could not
be so bold
i've seen him around since
and i know he knows
what he did
and got away with
he has glorified his
actions in his
own mind
knowing that i kept his
filthy secret
made it into mine

Paula Puddephatt