Feeling

Why does it seem like forever and a day?
when all you want to do is hide away?
a never ending feeling of panic, desperation and fear
when your alone when no one is near

What's the point of being alive?
when you aren't living all you do is survive
the light in the tunnel is nowhere in sight
all you can do is struggle and fight

Is it my fault do I need to do more?
Have I lost the plot don’t I realise the score?
Why cant somebody make it alright?
make me feel better make me sleep at night?

Food was a comfort it numbed the pain
but now its useless because it's been used again and again
wanting to scream but no voice will come out
lost and confused what do I scream about?

Wanting to cope with all this on my own
my innermost feelings I don’t want to be shown
people around me trying to aid
but all my hope is starting to fade....

Sarah Wardle