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Just a note: some of you may find this poem a bit triggering, especially if you're dealing with your own self harm issues & suicidal thoughts. As always, only read it if you feel strong enough - and if it does affect you then please talk to someone about it (whether in 'real' time, the internet or by ringing a helpline). See the links section for some organisations that might be helpful xxx Rachel

Wishful Thinking

All I ever wanted was some space,
But now I feel all alone in this place,
No one to talk to no one to share my inner most feelings of despair,
No one cares if I make it through the night,
All I ever wanted to do was to make things right,
Would it be a shame,
For me to stop the pain,
Would it all go away if I got hit by a train,
I feel like crying but inside I’m dying,
I cut my wrist and see the blood drain,
Knowing full well I’ve nothing to gain,
I drop to the floor and scream once more,
How long have I cried,
Is this just an innocent suicide.

Kerrie

I wrote this after spending 4 weeks in a mental hospital for borderline personality disorder