Losing Hope

This anger that I have inside
It can't be good; it's why I cried
The pain surrounds me,
Smothering, suffocating. I am not free.
I brush away my tears
Pretend I have no fears
Angry and ashamed
Always me, I get blamed
A knife, in front of me
And with cold, calculated
Brutality
Make crisscross cuts
Covering my skin with ruts
I'm tense, alone and scared
And it's not like anyone cared
Always leaving, so much pain
Is it a wonder I won't trust again?
Biting my nails, shutting my eyes
Turn up the music - drown out my cries
Hiding within myself
Is it good for my health?
I gaze at my blood; it drips onto the floor
I wont get a cloth 'cause I don’t care anymore

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