Monster

A trust that was broke
A lie that was spoke
You had my life in you hand
Saving me from the devil
But I couldn’t see your horns sticking out
So now I can’t sleep
And I wait till the day I will weep
A new responsibility given
A new action I have to fear
Why didn’t I save you
Why didn’t you get yourself some help
I had to find your secret
Your hushed friend
that kills you
That rips all of us apart
That cuts my heart
And tears the skin
Four months you hid
From who you are
From the monster chasing you
And finally pulled you in
It’s not that easy
Not that easy to say it’s done
To say you won’t
Because you said that last time
And it didn’t work
So why is now different
I am just not that strong
To let this be this
And tell you that I hate you
And what you did will never leave my mind
And now every time you go out
The question stays in my mind
Will the monster get you again
You brought me pain
You stole my joy
You are still to blind to see him coming
He is after you
And I can’t save you this time
I gave It all I got
And I got nothing left to give
I can’t be strong any longer
Can’t fight the pain you sent
For the bottle may have taken your pain away
But it wont take the daughter that wants you to stay.

Abby Miller