Firewater

Sitting here the waves crash over me BURNING my eyes and stealing my air and I cry and I lie somehow hope that I would die so take me away from here away from my fear burning deep inside of me you can’t escape your own destiny but still it’s my own responsibility why I’m here and why I’m falling I had a hold but now I’m falling down to where I’ve never been before down to where no ones ever seen before you go away leave me now I need to think a while leave me now i need to work it out and so you stay lying here these words flow over ME cover my eyes but the rest of me’s bare so i run and i hide from these thoughts here on my mind take me away from here away from my ANGER burning deep inside of me you can’t escape your own destiny but still it’s my own responsibilty why I’m here and why I’m falling I had a hold but now i'm falling so don’t YOU tell me that it’s ok to feel this way that life’s a bitch it’s true but someone has got to pay that’s ME the balance of tears is shifting slowly this little thought is all that keeps me near to the shore when waves caress me it’s just a matter of time it’s only a matter of time it’s just a matter of time till things turn around sitting here the waves crash over me burning my eyes and stealing my air and I cry and I lie somehow hope that I would die so take me away from HERE away from my fear burning deep inside of me you can’t escape your own destiny but still it’s my own responsibility why I’m here and why I’m falling I had a hold but now i’m falling. Down.

Rachel Studley © 2002