Mirage

Father listen to my heart
Tell me what I’ve done to be here
Waves reflect an angered voice
Calm the wind and let me fly

And I listen for another
And I try to feel the way
But I’m so tired
So I put my arms around you
But I can’t hold onto sand
Feel it slip away
It slips away

And so I cry when I want to
And I lie when I need to
I can disappear when it’s all gone wrong
And so I hide when I want to
Call your name when I need you
But I look and you’re not there
You were never really there

But then, that’s the way it goes.

Words from deep within my self
Somehow never seem to be well spoken
Tears flow softly down my cheek
I touch my eyes but yet they feel so dry

So I can’t hold on forever
But then still I can’t let go
‘Cause it’s so hard, I’m so hard
And I’m looking for an angel
Cure my heart of all my fear
But that never seems to happen
No that never really happens

But then, that’s the way it goes.

Never before have I wanted you to tell me
What I should and shouldn’t do
What I should and shouldn’t feel
Never before have I opened up my soul
So take what you want
And leave the rest for the birds

See them fly so high up in the sky
They never rush and they never cry
If freedom is the antidote
Then is my anger the poison to me

And so I cry when I want to
And I lie when I need to
I can disappear when it’s all gone wrong
And so I hide when I want to
Call your name when I need you
But I look and you’re not there
You were never really there

But then, that’s the way it goes.

Rachel Studley © 2002