Too Much To Try

Memories hurt more then pain,
Clouds my thinking, I feel insane,
I feel so insecure,
So sore,
I don't think I can trust anymore!
Because no one has ever shown their love for me,
People prefer to stay away, so the hurt eyes do not see.
They're all slowly backing off,
Leaving me defenceless and weak.
But it's not my fault these things play and play,
Through my mind everyday,
Blocking me from caring about the people around
But I feel bound,
Bound in my own head,
Feeling tied up, better then dead.
It doesn't matter nobody cares about the way I feel,
These wounds inside will never heal.
There's only love could make that so,
But who would love me? No one would stoop that low.
Still, would it hurt to try from someone to give that chance?
Because if it doesn't happen soon, I'll slowly be falling to my own death,
And right now nothing much of me is left.
Just numbness and the uncontrollable thoughts of suicide,
Wouldn't the world be happier if I just died?
That's the way I see it right now, my only option,
I could be away from earth, no relation,
Which means no more living just for the sake of having too,
And no more upset for the things I do.

Jodie