Just a note: Some people may find this article triggering - especially if they're struggling with self harm or are survivors of rape. As always, take care and get support if you need it xxx Rachel

Cutters Edge

This is the story of why I started cutting myself, and how I finally got SI free.

It started more than a year ago, when my classmate OD’d out in Saskatoon, I cried myself to sleep at night, using my mom's knives to cut my skin. The first times were nothing more than just small cuts that were pathetic. After my best friend died from a heart attack, I started making more cuts and making them deeper. My girlfriend at the time tried to stop me but only made it worse with her yelling. I finally stopped for at least a month during the summer but once my girlfriend broke up with me I couldn't take it anymore. I cut myself at least ten times, one almost going over my vein, I just sat there and watched it bleed as I cried till I fell asleep. I finally stopped after my friend started helping me find other ways to deal with my problems. I have so far been 6 days SI free but it’s harder each day, especially when u get raped and people blame u for it. I just hope that everything will work out and that I won't have to pick up that knife again ever.

Anon